Recovering alcoholic Matt Willis broke down in tears as he admitted missing his daughter’s first crawl.
The Busted rocker knew he needed to clean up his act after his granddaughter Isabelle’s landmark move while he was drinking in the pub with ‘strangers’.
Speaking to Giovanna Fletcher on her ‘Happy Mum Happy Baby’ podcast about Isabelle, who is now 13, Matt – who also has Ace, 11, and Trixie, six, with his TV star wife Emma Willis – recalled: “When Isabelle was born, I stayed sober for a while, then relapsed when she was about six months old.
“I kind of missed Emma’s birthday. She was in Birmingham and I was at, I was doing a TV show at the time.
“It was the closing party and I had a glass of champagne and was off to the races that evening; I arrived at his parents’ house at four in the morning as if nothing had happened.”
“It was the worst.
“The next morning I knew what I had done. Emma told me I missed Isabelle crawling.”
Struggling to pull himself together, he continued, “You know, she kinda mixed up her ass and stuff.
“But I never, she never crawled – and she crawled that night for the first time, and I was in a pub with some strangers.
“You know, I missed it, you know; and I really realized that I was a terrible father.
“It’s kind of – it really hit me. I’ve seen it all, this cycle of shit repeating itself, and it hit me like a ton of bricks.”
The 39-year-old musician admits he was ‘scared’ of being ‘at the bottom’ as a lot of people don’t make it out alive.
Recalling begging Emma, 46, to forgive him, he continued: “Everyone talks about hitting rock bottom and stuff and I’ve always been scared of those words because people are dying at rock bottom, it’s a scary thing to set.
“For me it was a turning point, I ran out of the house, walked down the road to this pub and didn’t go in, I had some gear in my pocket which I thrown in the trash.
“I bought a Lucozade, went home and knelt down and apologized and said I was so sorry.
“You know, for the first time, I really meant it.
“It wasn’t so much about quitting, it was about being a terrible dad and losing everything.”
He checked himself into the Priory’s rehab to be treated for alcohol and later drug abuse and has since become an exercise addict.
Matt is set to share his battle with alcoholism in an upcoming BBC documentary, ‘Matt Willis: Addiction And Me’, later this year.